We declined, and I felt kind of guilty.
I started to worry about how we're going to pay for this adoption. Really, there's NO WAY we have the money to do it. We've paid out everything we have, and there are still thousands of dollars left to pay as we go down the road. The only thing that brings me peace is the realization that this adoption has been God's idea all along. He was the one that brought us to it, and he can certainly provide a way to pay for it.
In the meantime, I still struggle with knowing how much of that comes from our work and creativity (multiple fundraisers, extra jobs, etc), and how much that comes from his amazing surprises.
This is what I read this morning from the Lord in Isaiah 46:
I say: my purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please. From the east I summon a bird of prey; from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose. What I have said, that will I bring about; what I have planned, that will I do.
So, I'm looking for a man from a far-off land to fulfill God's purpose by giving us thousands of dollars....wait a second....didn't I just receive an email from a man in Nigeria who was offering us just that?!