Over the course of this whole adoption process, we've gotten comments here and there like, "Oh, I don't think I could ever do anything like that", or "what great people you are", or "what a gift you're giving this little girl"....somehow implying that perhaps we're this super-spiritual or super-compassionate family....
The truth is, I don't think I can do it either. We're not great people. We're pretty screwed up, when it comes down to it. And this morning, after we prayed with the girls and got them on the bus, I sat at the dining room table and wept, mourning the loss of my perfect family of 4.
Okay, maybe not perfect....but pretty darn awesome.
We are so excited to bring Selah home, but the only thing that combats this overwhelming fear today is the knowledge that GOD is good. He asked us to do this, wanting the very best for our family, and so I'm confident that Selah is going to make our perfect family of 4 a perfecter family of 5.
Maybe I'm not supposed to talk about those ugly parts....but that's where I'm at.
Overwhelmed with excitement, fear, sadness and joy all at the same time as we prepare to leave tomorrow....please pray for us!